Education

Most of the students had already gotten their SPM results recently~ I guess now most of them will be thinking what type of course should they be going for?

When I was in the same situation, to be honest, at first I wanted to be in culinary arts, seriously~ I had told my parents but from their respond they dun seems to agree~ I guess is because asian parents always want their children to be learning and becoming someone who have a high standard qualification with high incomes such as the doctors, lawyers, etc... 

In the end I signed up from a Business IT course~ First of all is because I use to start IT classes when i was like 15 so my dad was like why not expanding the knowledge that i had with me~ So what the heck just went with it~  That's for diploma~ 

When i was about to sign up for degree i switched from an IT course to purely on Business Course which at first i persoanlly that i have enough with IT and bored of it, why not try learning something about the business environment~ But in the end now I somehow started to feel regret of how i soend these years of studies of something which is actually what my parent wants me to be~ 

If i had a choice again, i would surely choose and fight for what I want~ Never ever just be like "OK" and do what ur parent wants you to do~ By the end of the day, trust me, you wouldnt like it and wouldnt enjoy ur life how it should be~ When you start working and get old thinking about your pass, education life of yours really sux~ 

What's worst is that you see other people are having fun and you are not~ For now, I felt that I should have choosen what I wanted but as for now i can only just quickly finish my degree at get the cert and go for work just like that~ Sounds boring rite?

Maybe my mind now is thinking all about working~ Is true that u were able to mke lots of friends in the college everyday but is just matter how you get them~ 

A little bit about her =)

Recently I think i like a girl~ We know each other through facebook... We may not know each other long but, yeah we are friends =)

Chat with her most of the times~ The first person to find a person to chat with also is her~ Sometimes she might take some time to reply me, probably she is busy with her studies~ She is having her SPM this year though... Hopefully she will do her best ^^

Aiks, i think is gonna be tough for me to chase for her heart but I will try my best to get it~ *fighting!!!* Day by day, each time our conversation, i start to know more about her a little and a little~ 

At the moment, i just want her to be comfortable to chat with~ Is not good to rush though things... One step at a time rite? Hehehehe =)

She seems to be friendly, kind, playful, cute and funny~ But somehow, i still get to see deep down in her there is some emitional feeling of being loneliness at times~ Or maybe im wrong? Who knows...

We havent met or talk even once~ I know is weird to like someone when you have not even seen the person in reality but I dont care >.<

She is gonna have holiday for one week next week though~ I was thinking maybe i could ask her out for a date or something like that... Hopefully she wont turn me down by then~ Hahahaha xD

Recently I seen her in my dreams~ If im not wrong i seen her twice in a short period like 1 month time? I dun usually dream the same person in such a short period and to be honest, is really my first time being such hasty to make a move for her >.<

Anyway is time for bed now~ Gonna have to wake up early for class tomorrow... Goodnight and sweet dreams =)

Back with blogging

I always wanted to start blogging again but yet feeling lazy to type~ Most of the time when I wanted to start blogging again also is because there is something in mind that i would want to type it out but yet not too public~ People would say can use twitter de ma, but nvm la~ So finally im here start re-blogging again...

Been about 3years+ i have been blogging~ Reading back my old posts seems kinda silly and funny what I did and reminds me of the memories somehow i feel glad that i did posted somethings about my life and do feel regret that i did not post more...

In the past 3years, lots of things had happened~ Somehow feeling myself have became "worst" than before i guess and yeah i had lost weight seriously~ Haiz... 

I think blogging is sometimes good for you to express your feelings when you felt lonely and there is no one there to listen to your stories... To be honest, i felt kinda old already when so many years had passed which now im already 22 and when 18 when i stopped blogging~

Life is short i guess~ Is about 3am in the morning~ Time to get some sleep now... Goodnight and sweet dreams =)

11 November 2010

Tonight i went to 1u to fetch XiaoZhu home... I was late after she finish her work because suddenly i got "big business" need to do at home... After i arrived i saw her holding alot of things... I had already know is a gift for me but i was keep wondering what is it and curious about i but she didn't want to let me see it yet...

She said she want to go to jusco for awhile but i cannot come along, i did not know why... At first i tought she was going to wrap the gift but in the end i still dunno why she need to go jusco... So we split up and I went to guardian's shop to buy some medical stuff and snacks for tomorrow's camp... I dun wanna get bite by mosquito and starve at the camp >.<

After that we meet back again, at first she called me but i didn't notice it until i see missed call so i call her back... When i ask her where is she and she was just infront of me... Is about 10meter away from me and i felt kinda funny because i realised 2 ppl talking asking where are you but the person is just 10 meter infront of you... HAHA XD!!!

So we went back to my car lo... She was hungry, so we walk faster... When we was at the car park about to reach my car already, then suddenly call me to stop and asked me to give her my car key first... At first i was kinda blur but slowly i get the point... So she take those gifts and decorate it inside my car... She missed call me means that i can go back to my car already...

It was kinda funny... The first thing i notice is not my gifts is that she so itchy hand go and start the car engine for me... She is that playful de la, i already know her... She always wanted me to teach her drive but i think next time first lo... I kinda afraid of her she simply do things... You know when someone is playful and naughty will how geh lo....

Back to the point, the first gift i saw that she give me is that a bear bear... Small little brownish bear with not that much of fur... She kinda understands about me too because i with keep sneezing to those things that have alot of fur... She also gave me a wrist band, a POLO watch, a T-Shirt with her signature on it (i like this), a wallet and a PLAYBOY necklace... Total is 6 presents from my XiaoZhu include the bear...

She spend alot on me nia... The first feeling i felt was very touched and happy lo, then i feel that she kinda silly ^^ THANK YOU VERY MUCH BII BII!!!! Actually she dun have to spend so much on me de lo... Sometimes we also feel that she is like being a "GUY" and i'm being a "GIRL"... Is means like she is my boyfriend and i'm her girlfriend... HEHE!!! This 1 i will change... I must be more zhu dong liao ^^

So i drove her home and at first wanted to buy poridge for her but it is sold off le... Aiks, so had to buy noodles for her nia and a desert "tong shui"... Suddenly her mom called and check on her lo... Asking where she is and why so late haven't come home...

Honestly saying, i started to dislike this type of environment already because everytime her mom calls her XiaoZhu sure turn into no mood already... I really dun want to see her like that... Dunno why i feel so hot, i feel like i want to talk to their parents straight and forward and make it everything clear for her lo... But the only problem is that, XiaoZhu sure dun let me do so... *DoinK* How le?

I want XiaoZhu always to be happy all the time... I dun wanna see her unhappy and if she do i want her to share everything with me de lo... Aiya, dun 1 say all these things already... *SKIP THIS*

I really really feel like i became a big boy jor... Haha XD... So take care of my XiaoZhu... Is like this is my really 1 true love lo >.
XIAO ZHU I.W.A.L.Y.F.U.T.E.O.M.L
Sek Sai lou po.... MUACKX!!!!
Nitez

Silly Me XD

Dunno why so lazy to post blog jor... How am I with xiaozhu le? The past few weeks we got share happy,sad, crazy things lo... As long got alot things happened between us lo... But the 1 i remember lately is that there was 1 day i went to 1u to fetch her home... I didn't know what that day she treat me so sweet and giving me some simple suprise... Haha XD... I was happy because she finally started to be brave to zhudong le.. Gave me a suprise kiss on my cheek, bought me sweets and when going home we did something lo...

Sad things is that she always thing those question that will hurt our heart such as the person "Ham", are we match to be together? and alot more... I dun really wanna see her not happy like that...

The most recently crazy things is that I went genting just to be with her for 5 hours... I wasn't able to overnight and Genting with her because i got class to attend... I beg my friend to go with me and he really very nice really willing to go with me, so he bring his gf along lo... I actually feel myself kinda bad lo because is like i'm using them... I will repay them with something, i promise...

So me and XiaoZhu went dating at Genting... There was 1 little girl become our light bulb following with us... Haha XD... No la, actually is XiaoZhu friend need us to accompany her... She very lonely mah... Actually got alot things happened geh la, just not good to say it out... You want to know you ask XiaoZhu lo~ Hehe..

I try to make XiaoZhu and her friends happy that day... Try my best to make friends with people and be more sociable not like last time so EMO >.
After I left that XiaoZhu went and simply spend her money on me nia.... I was like AIYO!!!! No need de la, i just want her love mah... KekeXx~ But also buy jor lo... No choice, she ar, really cannot control herself without me along with her geh lo~ Huiyo... I also happy because in her mind all the time is thinking about me lo but i really dun 1 use money to like make me happy de lo...

Overall i'm still happy being with her and 9 November 2010 at 10.02pm is the time i propose to her and we are officially couple le... Hehe XD~ At genting i really have the time to tell her everything about me and my secret to her... I feel alot better after telling her...

I guess that's all i have to say ^^

First Time~

Yesterday XiaoZhu want me to cook poridge for her dinner today wor... She say MUST i cook geh, cannot buy from anywhere else... If i kena catch i buy from somewhere else, "i mati liao" >.<

So this afternoon i called my mom to teach me how to cook poridge... But dun have the ingredient, so I went to kepong jusco to buy lo... Alot people go there nia, dunno what jusco sales... Traffic jam and hard to find parking... I spend almost 2 hours just to buy the ingredients for the poridge...

Went back home and start cooking.... Wash every ingredients, then chop chop chop, then start cooking... Test the taste and Ta-DA.... Gao Dim~ Before i give to xiaozhu, i did ate two bowl because too much jor and i was hungry... Hehe, curi makan ^^

Actually before i learn how to cook, my mom was lazy to teach then she said next week first lo or go out and buy... I say cannot must cook today and cannot buy... My mom kinda smart then she asked is it for my gf? I was stunned for awhile nia, then i just say yes lo... Pai seh >.< My mom went and told my dad about this also nia.... Walao, i guess she going to tell everyone about this... ZaDOu~

Went to my cousin house for dinner, i bring along the poridge that is for xiaozhu because i'm gonna give it to her after she finish her work when i pick her up... I went in to the house, 1 of my aunt immediately say, i lose weight jor and do i have a gf already wor? It was the 2nd stunned I had for that day and I said "Yeees.... Gua..." Haha XD (i strecth the yes because i at first dunno want to say it out or not mah)

After dinner then go to 1u to fetch XiaoZhu after her work lo... Walk walk walk, talk talk talk with her... Then in the car, i see her so tired then help her massage for awhile but she like keep don'1 dunno why.... Then i hug her because i was really very miss her >.< Then i whispered in her ear and said I.L.Y to her.... At first i kissed her on the cheek then suddenly her lips came nearer to me then we..... (ahem, guess urself lo) Wakakakakka!!!!

I called her to sleep in my car for awhile but she dun 1 wor... She promised me that she will never sleep in my car anymore lo~ She told me about her work today and her mom not feeling well when i was driving.... Then reached her house le, i really dun want her to go in... I wanted to be with her much more longer but i know i can't lo because she had to take care her mom and she was very tired jor lu~ So i guess i had to let her go bah....

Actually i wanted to spend our sweet time together today geh... I guess we lack of is time lo, then nvm lu~ I really wanted the sweetness from her... I wonder when will it be le >.<

Feeling not right~

Tonight, xiaozhu suddenly tell me that she want to cry... She at first sound like don't want to tell me the reason why... Then she said that she way to cry because she is very weak and she hurt herself wor...

Dunno why, I have the feeling that is not that simple lo... I feel that is something else and I guess maybe is because of a person... Aiks, i really wished if she tell me everything... Or maybe what she said is really because she is weak and easily hurt herself bah... But actually deep down inside of my heart, my tears were droping just for her...

I guess i think too much... I must trust her bah ^^
Hope that she is feeling alright...
XiaoZhu, i will always be your side to support you de o >.<
I will never leave you all alone....

Proud~

Today morning, xiaozhu told me she took bus all by herself... I was proud/happy for her and I was worried about her le... But she is still smart lo, still can remember and make me feel not so worried anymore by sms me telling she arrived 1u safely...

So i dun disturb her when she is working and I continue to go for my classes lo... The classes kinda boring today... Just listen to what the lecturer have to say... Then after class they say want go "da gei"... Then go lo~ Play for awhile and went home jor cause mom need to use car...

I think that i really have to stop "da gei" jor... Have to save some money for me and Xiaozhu go out together use geh... Hehe XD

Ouch!!! (27 October 2010)

Today morning I have to teach XiaoZhu how to take bus to 1u because she is working at there... Before we go and take bus together, i went and fetch her to my house first with my Latio >.< And i promised her that she will be the first 1 i will fetch with the new car and I did keep my promised ^^

Then chun ren fetch me and xiaozhu to drop us at the bus stop... So while waiting for the bus, i dunno why that time i have so many things to say, including that I teased her... Wakakakaka >.< She ar, wear those clothes can easily "zhao gong" 1 nia... Let me see then nvm la, i worried is that let other people see le... Haha XD (just worried about her lo)

In the bus, i tell her how the bus goes... Then talk about our things lo... I told her the things i had done behind her back (good 1 la, dun have bad geh)... I done it just for her to be happy lo, then while she was listening to what i'm saying, she suddenly hold my hand... At first i was shocked, i guess she was touched bah >.< or maybe i perasan~ Haha XD

Reached 1u le, then we go walk walk and went old town to eat a little bit things... Only she is the 1 eating, i did not eat because i was not hungry so i just share a drink with her... Actually can say i drink the most, then she like scolded me abit, so i took out my bottle of water let her drink ^^ While she was eating then i looked at her the way she eat lo... She looked back at me and said "what?", i didn't say anything but I just do the kiss lips to her lo, then she suddenly go and bit my face with her finger... (is something like use the finger and "tan" people, read in chinese)

Walao, i was kinda not happy jor lo... In my mind is like "how can she do like that to me geh? Pain 1 le... I was supposed to let her sayang me 1 wor..." Then i was like dun 1 choi her for a moment, let myself cooldown awhile but she also got "tam" me lo... She keep saying sorry to me, actually i also dun blame everything on her... Is just that i really sayang my face geh... I also know that she very playful geh, so i dun blame her lo..

At first, dunno why I dun want her just keep saying sorry... I just want her to give me a kiss on my cheek where she bit my face, then i think i will feel better alot lo... Then after she eat, she still keep saying sorry while we were walking... I said "i was ok already"... I really ok already ma, i very easily forgive her geh...

We still have a little bit of time before she have to start working at the shop... We did went to some others shops to see somethings, cause she say she want to buy things for me wor... I told her dun waste her money le lo, she still working~ I gave her 3 rules if she really want to buy something for me....

1) I cannot choose what gift i want
2) She cannot ask what i want or let me know what she bought before she give me
3) It must be her the 1 who hand the gift to me

Otherwise i won't accept the gift... Hehe ^^ Actually i did this because i like suprise geh and if let someone know what is it already, then there is no more fun there... Without knowing it, makes you feel curious, happy and fun geh mah ^^

In between we have our conversation, and she keep asking me this~

XiaoZhu: Are you really ok mah? Honestly
Me: Yes, i'm ok already
XiaoZhu: Really?
Me: No, fake 1~ (purposely say no geh)
XiaoZhu: Yor, weih really sorry le
Me: XiaoZhu you look at me.... (then she look at me) I really ok le la...
XiaoZhu: People really feel sorry ma
Me: You give me a kiss on my cheek then i feel ok lu (at first i dun really wanna say out, let her zhu dong abit)
XiaoZhu: Har, now want meh? (getting ready jor)
Me: En (feel that she is trying to get her braveness)
XiaoZhu: Really? (with the ready position for quite awhile)
Me: Don't 1 jor, Don't 1 >.< (purposely geh)
XiaoZhu: .... (keep quite because she want to kiss jor)
Me: Dun 1 liao >.< (trying to move my head away, hehe XD)
XiaoZhu: *Smile*
Me: (inside my heart actually i feel abit pai seh got alot people...

End up, she did not give the kiss... Nvm le ^^ Still can next time geh, i want to train her to be more zhu dong... That time hor, she still say want to be more zhu dong than me nia >.< (XiaoZhu, listen first a~ Blek XP)

Then walked with her to her shop... So i have to wait for Chun Ren to come and fetch from 1u back to college for class... While i was waiting, i walked around 1u and go "da gei" for awhile... Hehe XD

The time passs..............

At night i went to Excalibur Cybercafe with my friends because 1 of the birthday boy want go wor... So accompany them go and play lo... Play from 8pm to 10.30pm then go home jor lu... That's all ^^

Step by Step

*Dang Dang Dang Dang*

Finally XiaoZhu and I have our time being together... I don't wanna face anymore disturbance... I'm tired of being suffer already... I don't wanna care what other people say, i just want to be with her >.<

Recently that XiaoZhu went and change the facebook relationship to "its complicated" because she say she still dunno whether we is really couple already or not... Cute la her, still dunno...

She also start working at 1u jor, dunno whether is she happy working at there or not... This XiaoZhu ar, very careless 1 lo... Always hurt herself during work, make me worried nia... But i'm happy to see her work and i will always support her de... Is her first time working ^^

Yesterday i was shocked of something she said to me... She said that sometimes i looks "leng zai + cute "... I was like stunned nia... Suddenly only and that time we was playing webcam mah.... So i purposely go do the evil laugh with my back facing to her... Then she zhat me back and say "Don't zi lian la you".... I dunno how to say how was my feeling that time but i can just say is funny ^^

Something i realise the way that i treat her is becoming more on the sweet side than the crazy type... Cause last time we always be crazy geh... I think i have to change back that type of me lo, i think she prefer that way wor...

Xiao Zhu!!!!
I will care about you more than you do...
I will miss you more than you do...
I will love you more than you do...
I will not you do anything more than me (blek XP)

X.Z.I.M.Y
X.Z.I.L.Y

Muackx by Z.Z <3

Away

Weeeeeeeee........ I have been away for awhile for not updating my blog... There is lots of things happened around me past few weeks when i'm not blogging... I don't think feel like wanna share what i have done because i really don't wanna think about it anymore... Just pretend it never happened b4 bah (Friends, Relationship, Exams, Works)

Wondering xiaozhu and I how le? Hmm... Can say that we are getting more closer and closer to each other bah >.< Although we are not couple yet but we are like already couple... We did go out for a date and our really first date was on 17th October... There are lots of first thing we did together and there was lots of suprised i get from her and on that day, i really understands how does it feel like when you really really trully love someone will a full heart. Tell you guys 1 think, she belanja me sushi king for dinner. Just for that dinner, i did not know why when i hugged her after that, i really feel very touched deep inside my heart...

Being with this xiaozhu i feel very happy, i learn lots of things, i learn how to control it too... I appreciated everything xiaozhu did for me, sometimes is not just words that are able to tell to the person you love what you want... When he/she really understands you, you can feel the link of your heart with his/her heart... And he/she knows what to do...

Just a few examples such as:
* Can i hold your hand?
* Can i hug you?
* Can i kiss you?

Usually this type of questions come out is from those people who are shy or afraid some would goes wrong... I think that it is alright~ Another thing is that when usually people couple they will very often says:

* I miss you
* I love you

I realised that if saying this all the time, your partner will get bored and there won't be any meaning there anymore because the person will somehow treat it as in a normal sentence then he/she going to listen everyday.

That's is all what i want to say. And I hope my relationship with xiaozhu will be better ^^

Z.Z

15 October 2010

My House Doggy, Yuki ^^








First Time my Bro buy me a gift nia ^^

PMR Ended~

Morning my mom wake me up because need to go out do my bank and IC things... A bad morning for me today nia, want to bath that time no water, need lights that time no electricity... Two in 1 for my morning today... So have to bath with cold water with no light in the bathroom in the morning....

I had a bad feeling something will happend today when i woke up... But i dunno what is it, maybe later i will post it... Then go out for my breakfast and do my things lo... After I did my bank and IC things still got time, so my mom said go for hepatitis injection in... I was kinda nervous... Reached there the doctor say need to take blood test first, so do that first lo.... Ouch!!! Pain nia T.T

Before i did the blood test, of course got keng gai with the doctor for awhile de mah... I joke with the doctor, she asked for my IC number and I said "I don't 1 give you"... But at last also still give... This is our conversation

Doctor: You just turn 18 a?
Me: Yalah, where is my present le?
Doctor: Next year first, since already past
Me: Cheh... Tipu 1...
(the blood test about to start)
Doctor: give me your hand?
Me: (i was like a small kid trying to run away and I shouted ^^ Haha XD)

At last also have to give her my hand nia... Aiks >.< Pain nia, when i saw my blood in the tube, i was like so "sum tong".... My blood let people take jor T.T
Now wait for the blood test result then only go for injection....

Reached home and looked at the time, i guess XiaoZhu already finished her exam... Wondering is she ok or not le? (Due to some case) I wanted to fetch her after her exam geh but she don't 1.... Then nvm lu, stay at home online only...

Then at night JiaWen call me to go her tuition centre to find her wor... Ok lu~ Went to her tuition centre watch movie but "hor" they keep skip de lo... Make dao me like no mood to see jor... We watch "Chen Zhen" but speak in chinese, zadou =.= (Somemore got alot thing happened during at the tuition centre, privacy ^^)

Went home online awhile then feel tired jor then went to sleep....

XiaoZhu Happy Day~

Dream about XiaoZhu again... This time I was giving her a piggie ride... Heavy nia >.< I only remember this but the rest i forget la... Pai seh~

Woke up, clean myself up, then online and prepare for my exam today while waiting for my mom to come back with my breakfast... Wasn't able to memorize all but i just remember the points name then use my own word to explain lo... Ate porridge for my breakfast bought from my mom...

Memorizing, i was thinking how was XiaoZhu's maths exam le, will she be able to do it... Think twice, i believe in her that she can do it bah, she is a smart girl lai de, know how to think de... Before i go to college, i went and straigthen my hair by myself... I long time never straigthen my hair already, so try have a look... Actually it looks not bad but i never put wax, just make it straight only...

Reached college, "ngam ngam" arived then start exam jor... No time to take out the paper and read... So just go in the class and start exam... The questions still ok la, not too difficult nor simple... Still able to do everything, i gave all the points but dunno my explanation correct or not >.<

After exam, i forgotten there was 1 class to attend but lucky my friend told me... At first i was hungry wanted to go for something to eat but no time jor... Aiks, just have to eat after class... Finished class, but i was waiting for my friend to show the lecturer his work...

While waiting, suddenly XiaoZhu called me... The class was in a very quite mode like the library then my phone rang with XiaoZhu's voice as my ringtone nia... One of my friend look at me and say "Hor!!! Hor!!!", macam the wife scolding the husband nia... The ringtone is like "Weih, i'm Ying Qiu le, if you don't answer my phone, you don't ever call me again and i will not call you again!!!" in a loud tone... Haha XD...

She called me because she want to tell me that there was 1 question i teach her yesterday came out in her exam... She was so happy she was able to do it with my help yesterday lo... I felt happy for her too ^^ After i close my phone, my lecturer asked me "Zhi Hao, you got girlfriend already 1 ar?", then i joke with her and said "yaloh, my girlfriend is you mah"... >.<

This lecturer ar, always say she 23 years old geh, won't get old geh... We always joke with her geh... One of my friend bully her by saying "miss, my sister older than you also look younger than you le..." Haha!!!

While walking back to my car to go home, i pass by a coconut truck, bought a bottle of coconut to drink... I bought it because i feel my body very hot and the weather too... My mom told me that coconut is cooling mah, so i bought 1 and drink lo, less than 5 minutes, 3 quarter of the bottle "boh liao"... Haha XD... It taste nice le...

Reached home, then online and chat with XiaoZhu using facebook email awhile... Then i called her phone, want to keng gai with her awhile but nobody answer then nvm lu... Dinner is ready, then go makan my dinner sin...

XiaoZhu called me and tell me somethings... Make dao her very "luan".... She did not know what to do, i knew this day will happen jor geh... Then she started to cry, then try to "tam" her lo... She tell me how she feels and i tell her how i feels lo... Suddenly she say she need to do something le but i think that actually she want to cry alone for a moment... Then ok lo~

Then later she call me again, this time she is better jor lo... Then this time is my time EMO le... I dunno why suddenly i cried for her... My first tear drop for her just came out from my eye... I tried to control my emotions by taking some deep breaths nia... Slowly slowly i feel better already.... Then continue chat like normal ba... Is around 10.30pm already, she want to sleep jor but i don't 1... At last also have to let her go... Goodnight and SweetDreams~

10.10.10

Had a weird dream last night... I was figthing with an indian person from my college, dunno what's the reason... Then i argue with 1 of my friend using rap nia, make him till pek cek... Haha XD

Saw a note from my mom, she said she have to use the car today... I was like "Oh NO!!!", i had to go for lunch with xiaozhu today de wor... How le? End up, she come to my house for lunch and study... Walked to her house and picked her up and walked back to my house... I need to take care of my house dogs nia because she said she was afraid of dogs geh...

First time bringing only 1 girl to my house le... The feeling is like bringing a gf back to my house... When she reached my house, i wanted to let her know that dogs is not so scary lo, let her slowly touch my puppy... Then started her studying, while she was studying i made a drink for her because she said she haven't had her breakfast yet... The drink was to make her stomache not to feel hungry and good for her health geh... Can help her to cure her, she sometimes very weak geh...

Study study study, then my mom suddenly called, asked me whether want "da bao" lunch or not, then i saw ok lo and called my mom "da bao" extra 1 more for XiaoZhu geh... I don't feel that we really like got study dao lo... But i guess she still learn something... Then while eating our lunch, my puppy came and asked for food... This time XiaoZhu very brave when and play with her, i was happy to see her that way... She overcome her fear on dogs le bah ^^

Then continue study, she seems to be like very lazy and tired already... We teased each other around, makes some jokes, and i was kinda tired too... Then i asked her wanna go home or not, she said "ok lo"... She think that i want her go back because i have to go out soon le, but actually not the reason de lo... I don't want to see her pressure like that jor, she also tired already... Enough for that day lo~

Before i fetch her home, actually i wanted to *XoXo* with her badly... Because i dunno when i will be able to be with her again... I really miss her very much... But she seems like.... Erm, dunno how to say... Then i just forget about it lo, i feel that myself like being too selfish too... Kinda depressed but i will be ok after that...

XiaoZhu suddenly want go play basketball, then we went for basketball for awhile... Challenge 2 boys for 2 on 2 basketball, 7 points game.... I teamed up with xiaozhu and we won but she was dissapointed and sad because she wasn't able to score any points... Actually i was very worried about her at the back, i scared she will get hurt or kena "chao shui" le... Because you know basketball very "ganas" 1 la... She already did the best le although she did not score any point... Without her help, i won't able to score the points... We support each other all the time lo... XiaoZhu, cheer up bah ^^ You can do better geh...

After the game, she wanted to walked home... But i don't allowed her because actually the reason was, i got the feeling she will go back to saga basketball court and she looks tired for the day already... I know she not happy because she can't get any points but i want her to focus on her study first... Just 2 more days for her only then she can do anything she want le... So she end up listen to me and let me fetch her home...

I was so tired too after the game... Reached home abit dizzy, i was too rush for the game, didn't warm up nia... While resting i still worried about XiaoZhu, because she leave my car, i see her eyes was red i tought she cried and very unhappy lo... After i take my bath, i straight called her and see whether is she ok or not...

Went out dinner with my friends at Giza Mall, Ichiban Boshi Restaurant... Eat until so full nia... In my mind, all the time is about XiaoZhu... I never been like this for a girl before... I guess i really love xiaozhu very much bah >.< Then after dinner went for walk around Giza Mall... We go "makan angin" then i wanted to call XiaoZhu but nobody picked up the phone... So we go for SnowFlake for desert... So many cars and people nia...

After that we go "makan angin" again at Desa Park City.... Try to call that XiaoZhu again..... She told me she was ok, i hope so bah... Then remind her to prepare the maths instruments for her exam tomorrow... She had to sleep early le, wish her goodnight lo... Walk around Desa Park City, walked for a big round... Everyone tired jor, then go home...

Had A Nice Day ^^

Hmm???

Morning woke up, the first thing i think was about the dream i had last night... I dreamed about XiaoZhu and I at the stadium when i was going for my college sports carnival... She was there to support me and we were dating when we have free time... We hold hands and *XoXo* lo >.< One of my relative family was there and saw me dating, but they just keep quite ^^

NO more thinking jor then get ready for badminton... This time is me to drive, went and fetch my friends... My car was like so heavy nia, i step on the paddle also like cannot fly fast.... When the car move very fast, then i hard to break... First time feel so hard to drive nia... Plus my car only 1.2CC, sure cannot fly fast jor...

At badminton place there, so many of my friends went and change their racket string... I wanted to change mine too but mine still looks new, so i don't think i have to change lo~ Dunno why today play badminton, i won't feel tired... I was like in a great form today... Hehe XD

After badminton went damansara damai eat chicken rice... Actually the stall not only chicken rice la, got alot more like chicken hor fun, curry fish head and many more... The aunty and her daughter looks so familiar nia, dunno at where see b4... Macam one of my relative like that nia >.< The daughter looks like my secondary school "Yen Wen" from the side and the back... Back to the point, the food there was very nice but the place like very inside lo... Very less people know about it... The aunty was very friendly to us, i think today was her best business ever because there was so many of us go "bong chan" the stall today....

Went home after that, i was damn exhausted nia after having a good game this morning and a heavy meal in the afternoon... Reached home online for awhile the sleep at the sofa already... Just took a short nap, then went to my cousin house to fix her laptop and go for acupuncture lo... Unable to fix her laptop on time today, so had to bring home and actually i forget to bring 1 thing to her house too... Pai seh >.<

Reached home take dinner, then online play game for awhile lo... Then chat with xiaozhu awhile... Suddenly she asked me whether want to have lunch with her tomorrow or not wor... I of course say ok la... Haha XD~ Can't wait for next day... Then went to sleep jor~

XiaoZhu~

XiaoZhu, i always want to know what are you thinking all the time... I don't want you to keep things from me... I want to understand more about you ar... I want to share my time with you... When you need me, you can find me de mah... Don't feel that you scared you will disturb dao me lo ok? We can share happiness, sadness, craziness, funniest thing with you all the time...

When you're happy, i will be there to be happy with you~
When you're sad, i will be there to comfort you and accompany you...
When you're crazy, i will go crazy along with >.< (macam soh lou and soh po, haha XD)
When we share funny things together, we will be laughing together until we get stomache pain together >.<
When we share secrets, we promise not to tell anyone about our secret and just between two of us... (shhh.....)
When you need me to be at your side, i will be at your side and giving you a warm hug ^^ (this 1 must see first de lo, you know de la, sometimes got something between don't let us only mah >.<)
We will always wish each other goodnight and sweetdreams before we sleep no matter what o~

I wanna take care of you, every single step you take...
I will not make you fall, but if you do, i will still be there you carry you back up...
You're just the only 1 in my heart, and you're the only 1 has the key to open my heart... >.<
What i really want from you is just i want you to love me all the time, take care me all the time, and being in your heart all the time ^^

This is what i always want to say to you all the time XiaoZhu...
Everything is straight from deep down of my heart...
I will always place you the 1st in my life...
XiaoZhu I.LOVE.YoU <3

Friday!!!!

Oh yes!!! Is friday jor... This morning, i wished the class finish earlier... Once i finish my class, i was so happy nia.... Weekend no class!!! I straight away called xiaozhu and asked her out for breakfast, but i kena REJECT nia >.< Because she was lazy... Aiks, so i find my other friends lo... They all busy, so i just have to go "da bao" and eat alone at home...

Read XiaoZhu's blog... She always don't wanna tell me her feelings geh lo, especially when she need me... I really hope she tell me everything when she needs me to accompany her lo... I don't want her always suffer all by herself nia... Want to tam her, want to comfort her, want to tell her that she is not alone all the time... There is still a pig there for her all the time~ Wakakakakaka....

I feel so sorry for her le... I'm the one that make her feel so down le because she wasn't able to cheer me up... When i was ok already, i tried to cheer her up but is not working le~ Then i started to worried about her lo... She suddenly shouted because i wasn't able to listen to what she say... I was shocked and feel like i'm being scolded nia... Then i just sot sot geh accept that scold from her... But actually she is just pretending to be angry.. But i sot sot geh take it seriously... Because that time i was in serious mode on what she have to say ma... >.<

Her mum came back jor, cannot keng gai liao... I really did not want to make it a bored day for her geh le... XiaoZhu, i'm very sorry... Now i understand you much more le, i learn from the mistakes i made today... Hehe XD...

I really wished to know what are you thinking all the time...
How do you feel all the time...
I want to understand more about you...
I won't let this type of day happened again le~

At night,she send me an message to my facebook and said she happy le... Then she want to call my house phone later after she bath... The reason why she happy back because she played water with her sister... She had fun and she happy back again lo... Then we talked on the phone... This time dunno why we 2 talk about hamsap things... I at first wanted to stop jor geh, then dunno why she like being attracted to it, want me to continue say... Then when i say jor, i feel like i'm very bad lo, teaching her bad things >.< Also got good geh, at least she know more about it lo...

We have a new record on the phone jor... This time is the most longest time i speak on the phone too, that is 4 hours and 10 minutes nia... I was shocked, time pass so fast~ It was 1am already, i had to go sleep and wake up early the next day because my friend invited me to go for badminton game.... Hehe XD

Up and Down

Today i went college like didn't go only... Just bring my ear to college and listen only~ Boring nia... Yesterday i bought digi sim card near my house, then today my college only start to sell that sim card... There is a Digi booth at our college... There is more number to choose nia, zadao~

Nvm lo... Buy then buy liao lo... Today i park my car far away from the college, so i call my friend fetch me to take my car along with some other of my friends too... There is 4 people sitting at the back, then they start to say "oui, later got police road block how"... Then all say "won't so ngam gua"... So just don't care and continue lo, on the way that time, really got road block but we didn't kena... Haha XD... We was so lucky we escaped from the police... My heart was like beating damn fast nia... In my mind when i saw the police was like "OMG, GG.com jor"... Haha XD

Then they say want to race wor but i don't 1 so i just went home immediately... But i still drove very fast since there is no car mah... Hehe >.< Reach home, online for a while then go out "da bao" lunch near my house... It was around 3.30pm jor, so i just i remember that XiaoZhu will finish the exam that time already mah... I was thinking "should i go fetch her home or not le?"... I go "da bao" first, while waiting i called her phone see she got bring phone to school or not lo... Nobody answer nia, then nvm lo~ Then i think another time, better don't go lo, if i go, i bet she sure will scold me 1 lo... Sure say "no need study ar? you so free is it? your exam also want come already le..."

That XiaoZhu also worried about me geh ^^ So i decided don't 1 go lo... Guai guai go home... Actually there was 1 more thing i was shocked that is when b4 i went into my car i was singing 1 of "wang lee hom" then i start the engine, the song i sang was played on the radio... Haha XD..

Suddenly, i miss xiaozhu very much~ I really wanted to be with her... Want hug hug >.< But i also cannot la... Just dream only~ Then at night talk on the phone with xiaozhu lo... Actually don't feel like want to go sleep geh lo, but i have to because got class the next morning.... And i have 1 feeling is that, i wanna fall asleep on her lap, just like there will be there for me too >.<

Shocked!!!

Need to wear formal to college today again for presentation... Wake up early morning, so lazy to wake up nia and i did not have a good sleep last night... My flu was disturbing me, making me to wake up... I have flu and little bit of fever but i did not want to go and see doctor... Hehe XD

Early morning go for class and I started to simply to say things jor, say "wu liao" things to my "kai ma"... She asked me, is it i sot jor, actually i think I was lo~ Too boring jor...

Then go for my english presentation, I'm the first person who start to speak because my group was the first group to present... I was shaking and just speak what i have to say and what's in my mind for the presentation... I did my best and I guess i did well? Hope so >.<

4 of my friends is in the car at the same place, so they say let's race... Today i car-pull my friend's car, so i'm not in the race... Just as the passenger... Walao, they drive until so ganas le... Especially that Kiyun, he keep on overtake people by going left and right... The gap for him to overtake was very small but he still take the risk... Then my friend of course drive very fast also la, then almost back his butt~ I was like "Walao weih!!!".... I shouted in the car, because it was so dangerous and i can feel the car is like going to flip over nia... 1 quarter of my soul is gone at that time...

Lucky i went home safely nia... That Kiyun really "ki siao"... Went home, on facebook and online for awhile see whether is there any friends to chat with, since there is not then i went and took a nap... I had a dream that i chat with XiaoZhu using the facebook message... She find me and chat first lo >.<

When i woke up, so i see whether is it reach she send me a message... She really did and i was really shocked on what she wrote nia~ My dream come true... Haha XD... This is what she wrote...

"Zhu zaii, 5th of oct,7pm dono y vry miss you. I slp from 5pm wanted to slp until morning den suddenly 7pm I woke up n I cant slp back n my mind all is yr face n all our memories. Dono y I wanna tell you.. I miss you very very much, I feel like seeing you now, I feel like standing in front of you now. Dono y in tat moment I really miss you, I Dono how to tell you how I miss you, is juz like I miss you until Tat cup is full n it starts to over flow ardy. In tis msg, I juz wanna tell you.. I miss you."

The XiaoZhu wanted to call me and asked me to accompany her "keng gai"... Honestly saying hor, i really like this feeling ^^ I like it when she say sweet things to me le but when i say sweet things to her, she is like bo rasa only and she will say "macam yes"... I let her "zadao"~

We chat like what we usually chat lo, she said her first day for PMR was pressure already... I was like AIYO!!! So i tried to comfort her lo, instead of that she bully me back nia~ Aiks >.< Then she have to study and i have to do my homeworks le... Goodnight and Sweetdreams ^^