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2nd Day of Java Fundamental Programming Course, another boring day.... Every time theory mode i sure feel like sleeping, did not know why my eyes feel very dry (eyes keep blinking).... When it comes to practical mode, i'm active already but did not know how to do most of the time... I'm just copying the teacher information in the projector nia~

The another student got experience in programming before mah, sure easy to him loh cause almost similiar mah... The teacher and and him keep talking programs, i was so blur to listen to their conversation so i decided just to ignore them and do my own work... Hate this situation... Ate lunch alone also, boring dao... Lucky there was 1 leng lui and a music shop beside the restoran i went... Can gap lui, listen music and eat lunch at the same time....

10.30am-3pm do nothing in the class... Just online nia~ If there was a bed i already sleep for that few hours... I was damn tired and sleepy.... Wanted to play dota but after install Garena, the error "debugging" keep come out... Cannot log in, WTF!!! Nothing can do la... Only can watch videos...

I kena bully by programmers... Both of them keep saying easy, i still fresh de la... How to ikut so fast... Never let us try using other information on the same method... Haiz, nvm la.... Just ignore it and fast fast finish just to take the certificate la.... Anyway free MILO to drink... I just keep taking it, it is a vending machine... So just wait for the drink to be served...

Raining heavily, so first thing reached home is sleep... Nothing else, not even bother to bath first... Freaking tired.... Oh ya, last night i remembered when i was sleeping... I realised that i was laughing while sleeping... Forgotten what was i laughing... When i woke up in the middle of the night (when i realised i was laughing), i smiled at myself and shook my head a bit then went back to sleep... Haha XD...

Woke up for dinner, feel like continue to sleep but i know i can't... So go for a bath, eat dinner, online, watch video.... Luckily the video made me laughed, i really like that "We Got Married" korean reality show... It is the two singer Jo Kwon (2AM) and Ga-in (Brown Eyed Girls).... Their actions and conversation were very nice... Love it so much... Hope it happend to me in real life with my girlfriend bah.... There were a few past touching and i learned something new...

Suddenly felt moody... Find someone to chat and comfort me... I was so serious to her, she like play play... Aiya, fine la~ I also don't 1 to force you, i just be alone la... Almost wanted to cry...

Haiz, why is my heart so weak le... I'm so easily get influenced by other people's feeling... I understand people's feeling but the don't understand mine... Why should this happend.... I get nothing... Only I can help them but nobody tries to help me and understand with it... EMO!!!!

Q1)Am I a very bad person?
Q2)I want LC and fierce face is it?
Q3)You think i very hurt people's feeling with words?
Q4)You feel that there is nothing to chat about?
Q5)I'm a boring person?

Actually i wanted to share everything with friends de la.... I realised that i'm like being someone's part time lover or part time friend... WTF!!! I'm not purposely being negatively and not trying to get "kesian" from people ok... I seriously felt this way... Sorry for everything if i really did those things...

A1)I don't think i am... I can be very nice and be very bad...
A2)I was born with a face like that
A3)I do realised that sometimes, trying to change... Give me some time pls... Thanks
A4)Sometimes i will find a topic to chat... But i don't really like you guys just reply me with just a single word... It will immediately stops the conversation.... I tried to share things with you all and elaborate them out if i can....
A5)Kinda, but i can be fun too if we cooperate with each other if you don't mind being in different situation such as childish actions, cooperating language and etc...

Which everything can change to a nice...
What i know is, true friend will try to sacrifice a little thing to make their friends happy... Such as money, time, items... Altought will feel not comfortable with it, but good result came, you will feel satisfied with it and worth it for doing it... And don't do things just on purposely when you not willing to do so... It will not show your sincerely side... Don't think in a negative way... Hope this will works...